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I’m bored, and I need more ways to spread the word: https://substack.com/@el12485713?utm_source=edit-profile-page

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NOTE: THIS POST WAS MADE DURING A BIPOLAR EPISODE, AND REFLECTS THAT STATE

On leave atm, so only temporary, but all should go well.

I’ll start posting in earnest again afterwards, but – I’ll outline my plans for where I want to take this little PDA.fae corner of the internet:

• I want to create a PDA lead, OT assessment “play” school
• I.e. Montessori based, safe, computers, meeting place, cafe, bookshop
• I’d love for that to exist in my home county
• I’m a definite lifelong student – and I will complete my own damn PhD in my own time. It requires psychophysics and that’s as much as any one needs to know for right now.
• Yes, I am a previous psychology student, right now I have a DipHE, currently I am an undergrad at the Open University (studying the Open Degree – the best undergrad pathway for any interested PDAer)
• I want to write my own book on PDA, based on this blog, my instagram, with contributions (if anyone is interested and willing!)
• I have previously written a novella magical fiction, which I would LOVE to publish
• So, to return to the PDA.fae business? I’d love to set up an online meet up group: discord, zoom, kumospace
• If you have any thoughts, email me at plum.faeATgmail.com

Just gonna leave this link here in case anyone else needs a reminder that Christmas was “just a Wednesday.”

I wrote on christmas eve of the importance of an autonomous christmas.

my family completely denied me that.

i need a pause.

Been really struggling with trauma the past few days.

Lots of calls to 111 and a emotional support line they can refer you to. Lots of using “same but different” which can be found on DIS SOS, lots of reality checking, support from my neighbours and mum.

Lots of friends pulling serious, dangerous bullshit. Won’t go into details, but oh god it’s been a lot. It’s made coping much harder for me.

Things are very hard right now, and I may not post as much

https://www.instagram.com/pda.fae/

This is where you can find my instagram account that accompanies this blog.

I’ve decided to start being active on instagram to support my work here. I spent a lot of time on the site when I was exploring neurodivergence for the first time properly in 2021, so the autism and ADHD community there really means a lot to me, especially any adult PDAers I come across.

I find that most PDA content is parents talking about their kids, so I hope to add another adult perspective to the offerings. I find it so important for adults to find others they can relate to when so many of us are late diagnosed, and have lived our lives without any full understanding of ourselves as people.

Due to my history of complex trauma (and also due to attending a religious primary school, where there was – to my mind – religious indoctrination), I’ve struggled for most of my life with the concepts of religion, faith and spirituality. I’ve considered myself an atheist since I first heard the word at 9 years old, reasoning that this universe contains too much evil to have been created by a loving god, and that relying on the explanation of a creator was simply a form of ‘god of the gaps’.

However, some of my delusions had a spiritual component, and now where I’m at the stage of having returned to consensus reality, some of that has stayed with me powerfully – the idea that we do live in a universe, where the cause of it will never be known, but somehow it does try it’s best to make a home for us. In effect, I’ve started to feel that what can be “worshipped” is the gift of there being a universe at all, via the celestial bodies (for me, the moon was central to the spiritual delusions as representing god) – but not so much worship, but rather, appreciation.

The appreciation to have the chance to experience a universe at all, and a globe that spins that leads to the new day. I remain agnostic as to whether that universe came from a specific creator entity, but am now more open to the possibility that if there is a chance there was such a creator, there could well have been. It’s.. interesting, experiencing psychosis as partly a communion with the spiritual nature of life, but in terms of healing from trauma, deeply meaningful.

Autism understood – linking to this to help boost this neuroaffirming site by spectrum gaming for autistic young people to understand autism when newly diagnosed. Spectrum gaming do an awful lot of work with the PDA community, supporting young PDAers