PDA fae

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  • Hopes for my 34th year!

    • I hope to shortly own a kitty
    • I hope to do well in my first stage of university – acheiving a distinction in my first module, and passing my second (due to my dyscalculia)
    • I hope to meet new people, and make solid new connections where there is mutual supportiveness and understanding
    • I hope to keep experiencing enjoyment in life
    • I hope my meds do not get reduced or stopped
    • I hope to avoid mania and depression
    • I hope to keep healing my trauma
    • I hope to enjoy my new flat, and decorate it how I want
    • I hope to experience autonomy and lower demand living
    • I hope that my carers will be able to adequately support me in daily living

    It could be a big year! It should hopefully not be a year lived in hospital, unlike 33. I should hopefully enjoy being well in the community, engaging in interests and social groups.

    Wish me luck – if you feel inclined to do so!

  • Link to pda.fae on instagram

    https://www.instagram.com/pda.fae/

    This is where you can find my instagram account that accompanies this blog.

  • Instagram

    I’ve decided to start being active on instagram to support my work here. I spent a lot of time on the site when I was exploring neurodivergence for the first time properly in 2021, so the autism and ADHD community there really means a lot to me, especially any adult PDAers I come across.

    I find that most PDA content is parents talking about their kids, so I hope to add another adult perspective to the offerings. I find it so important for adults to find others they can relate to when so many of us are late diagnosed, and have lived our lives without any full understanding of ourselves as people.

  • Healing: the weird benefits of a psychosis

    Due to my history of complex trauma (and also due to attending a religious primary school, where there was – to my mind – religious indoctrination), I’ve struggled for most of my life with the concepts of religion, faith and spirituality. I’ve considered myself an atheist since I first heard the word at 9 years old, reasoning that this universe contains too much evil to have been created by a loving god, and that relying on the explanation of a creator was simply a form of ‘god of the gaps’.

    However, some of my delusions had a spiritual component, and now where I’m at the stage of having returned to consensus reality, some of that has stayed with me powerfully – the idea that we do live in a universe, where the cause of it will never be known, but somehow it does try it’s best to make a home for us. In effect, I’ve started to feel that what can be “worshipped” is the gift of there being a universe at all, via the celestial bodies (for me, the moon was central to the spiritual delusions as representing god) – but not so much worship, but rather, appreciation.

    The appreciation to have the chance to experience a universe at all, and a globe that spins that leads to the new day. I remain agnostic as to whether that universe came from a specific creator entity, but am now more open to the possibility that if there is a chance there was such a creator, there could well have been. It’s.. interesting, experiencing psychosis as partly a communion with the spiritual nature of life, but in terms of healing from trauma, deeply meaningful.

  • Autism understood

    Autism understood – linking to this to help boost this neuroaffirming site by spectrum gaming for autistic young people to understand autism when newly diagnosed. Spectrum gaming do an awful lot of work with the PDA community, supporting young PDAers

  • Happy Autistic Pride day!

    It’s the last 15 minutes of World Autistic Pride day, so I just wanted to quickly note that.

    It was nice, my non-autistic friend said ‘happy Autistic pride day’ today 😀

  • What I hope for..

    .. when I write here.

    I hope that an unhatched PDAer (credit goes to @autismsupsoc) finds this page, and begins to find themselves.

    I hope that by sharing what helps me function, a fellow PDAer might find something that helps them, or it might spur an idea of their own to help themselves.

    I hope allists learn about a little known area of the autism experience.

    I hope parents get a sense of adult life with PDA.

    I hope to better understand myself.

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    Fancied a change up, so a change of blog theme. That’ll probably happen every once in a while.

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    Gonna link to this twitter thread; https://twitter.com/Autist_Writer/status/1638996227286093824 because it sums up all the feelings I have about Untypical that I struggled to express.

    Words are not proving easy at the moment. Not to the point of being completely mute, but not infrequently expressing myself proves tricky or harder than I can manage. There’s also a general sense of ‘No.’ from my brain about nearly everything, and a lingering sense of ‘life is really, really boring’.

    Hopefully this will pass in time.

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    All links to Harry Thompson’s content is going to be removed from this site. No further links to his content will be shared here.