Neutral

I made a post on my instagram about how sometimes I do not like being neurodivergent. Recently I’ve been struggling with being autistic, ADHD, (likely) dyspraxic, dyscalculic – and especially, bipolar. That it feels like it just makes life more difficult, causes more struggles and loneliness.

My journaling tonight leads me to reflect that I would not wish for my neurokin to be self-hating.

So I asked myself, are there good things to being different in this way. Maybe right now I’m just not seeing them, because I’m finding it really hard to create an answer to that question that lists any positives.

But if I don’t want my neurokin to be self-hating I shouldn’t put that on myself either.

Maybe then I can take a neutral stance, like I’ve seen many others adopt. That neurodivergence can just be neutral. It just is. It’s ok that it is, it’s a variation that is, that happens.

And it’s ok.