In further ‘tidy only one thing’ success, my dining table has a lot more free space on it now.
This rule isn’t freeing up enough demand capacity to get this entire tiny flat sorted, but just enough to do one small piece on my own. I’m still recovering my demand capacity after my hospitalisation from August 2021 to April 2021- having to only meet the demands of ‘sleep at night, take meds when asked, eat enough to not worry us’ actually really depleted my demand capacity. There’s a video on youtube of a young boy talking about his PDA who says that allowing himself to avoid a demand makes it harder to return to meeting it later. I would say this year was a big example of that.. I left hospital thoroughly painfully understimulated, but with so little demand capacity that it took about a month of just watching tv on my laptop to repair the understimulation and start repairing my demand capacity.
It’s been 6 months now. In many ways I’ve come on leaps and bounds – I’ve started a teaching assistant apprenticeship at a local SEN school. So obviously I can now meet an awful lot more demands than 6 months ago! It doesn’t feel like a truly accurate reflection of my capacity though, because that work fits exactly my PDA flow. I’m working with autistic learners, I’m very interested in education and the autistic experience of it after my year spent learning about autism as I realised I was PDA.
So is that work ‘demanding’? Arguably not.
Outside of work, I’m still struggling.
But for tonight, one small success.
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