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Tag: dyspraxia

  • Disability sport

    Gosh I am really loving the Paralympics this year!

    I was really upset in 2008 when Beijing was allowed to host the Olympics. It had been on the proviso that they improve their humans rights record, they did not. Despite that initial pre-requisite, they held the Olympics there anyway, and as a result, I didn’t watch for a few years – not even London 2012. Then, I missed most of Tokyo 2020 due to being pretty unwell in hospital at the time it was held (in 2021, due to covid).

    I’m still pretty upset about the 2008 Olympics, but I think catching some of the sport at the last ward whilst well enough to enjoy it just piqued my interest. The Olympics were perfectly time for the first week and a half of living completely on my own for the first time in a year. I spent most of it lazing around, either in my bed with the tv playing, or on the sofa. I slept through a lot of the events, or just listened.

    I did catch the 800m British women’s win, and the surprise rock climbing gold – I forget the respective athlete’s names at this time. Those were the highlights, alongside Botswana winning their first ever gold, that was very special.

    I’ve managed to actively watch an awful lot more of the Paralympics. Channel 4 has managed brilliant coverage of the sports. I’ve noticed they’ve employed loads of disabled presenters, and made real effort to make things accessible for disabled viewers. I also really enjoy the Last Leg shows at the end of the night – great comedy, great disability representation!

    My only gripe is that there’s no place for dyspraxic people at the Paralympics. This feels unfair to me, as dyspraxia definitely affects physical performance. It makes me feel that we should create a “Dyspraxia Games”, similar to the Deaflympics.

  • Further thoughts about dyscalculia and dyspraxia

    I think I’m much more severely dyspraxic, than dyscalculic, and it’s the one that frustrates me more. It’s annoying to struggle with basic movements on a day to day basis.

    The main frustration with dyscalculia is that it hampers me studying something like astronomy. I had a major special interest in that as a kid (as well as palaeontology, teaching myself how evolution worked at age 8).

    I’ve always been highly intelligent, described by my tutor at Cardiff University as “gifted” (my one brag in life). So it’s hard to be held back by a specific learning difficulty.

    It is still more frustrating though to be clumsy and struggle with movement. I drop things, knock things over, struggle to style my hair. Stuff that’s so basic for other people, and it really gets me judged. It’s upsetting.

  • Suspected dyspraxia

    As part of my dyscalculia assessment, the assessor screened for dyspraxia. Turns out, as I had thought, it seems very likely I have it, so she’s written a referral for me.

    I really would prefer not to have these struggles. I want to be better at sports and handicrafts. I struggled in tech lessons, with carpentry and sewing machines. I can’t run fast, I’m generally totally unable to compete in sports.

    Sometimes this can be my least favourite part of my neurodevelopmental divergences. People are very judgemental about the results of the struggle as well – they seem to only judge sensory sensitivities as much. They judge when I drop food and make a mess, for example. I’m clutzy and that gets disapproval.

    It’d be really nice if people understood better about dyspraxia, and that my clutziness isn’t just laziness or not trying.