Well, ooops. I posted to my instagram account (winternighttraveller), in the depths of delusion. Not going to go into details of what my delusions have been, there’s no need (and I find sharing the details highly embarrassing after they’ve started to pass).
Currently I’m an inpatient on a ward, after a summer MH crisis. It’s been.. difficult, I’ve been very poorly with psychosis.
There is some truth to the content on the instagram: I do intend to do lived experience research into PDA, using perceptual data to look at the differences in brain regions and functions between Autistics, PDAers and Allistics. I suspect that what makes our brains tick is that we are a halfway point between the other two neurotypes: processing in a top down manner, but also in a more Autistic bottom up way. That is to say, that we partially use heuristics* cognitively, but also take an awful lot from our sensory perception to guide our cognition. I wonder if possibly the demand avoidance/anxiety arises when the two “collide”, and the brain feels overloaded between the sensory input, and external top down induced “demands”.
*top down and heuristics refers to using cognitive shortcuts, and prior known awareness to guide automatic thinking processes.
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